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It is with a heavy heart...

It is with a heavy heart that I share this information to our family.

For the last 4 days I have had a very strong gut feeling, it has never failed me; unfortunately, today it didn't. I truly believe the gut feeling is GOD.

I'm broken hearted, yet I know you all would want to know.

August 12th, our dear Terry passed away. She was buried at 1:00 pm today 8/16.

I recall her saying she was from Parkersburg, WV, so I searched only using the only name we knew "Terry" and she had her birthdate listed on her profile.

I will send Jill a copy of the obit, so she can set up a candle lighting.

One thing I learned from Terry in the short time that I knew her, be optimistic.

None of us know what tomorrow will bring.

Please take a moment and reach out to those you love and tell them I LOVE YOU!

If possible hug them like they have never been hugged before.

Trust me, just do it, you will not regret reaching out to your loved ones.

I know this first hand. August 12, 1987, my older sister took her own life at 31 yrs old. She was buried August 16, 1987 - 30 years ago. She was in NYC and we had no clue, one person knew she had been talking about it - yet never reached out to our family (she was a member of our family). So never take anyone for granted.

I am sorry to be the bearer of bad news. In Terry's case, it may not be bad news. Bless her heart, she had a really rough time, yet always stayed optimistic.

Please say a special prayer for her peace, her family and friends that she left behind.


God bless you all 🙏🏻



Susan, Sandy sent you a prayer.
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Hi Ann,
I'm confused. Are you talking about Terry or Kelly? Kelly passed away in July. Terry is from Parkersburg,WV. I know that Terry's last post said that she was in hospice. It saddens me that we have lost another friend.
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Thanks Becky, that was my bad. Then I think about it, Terry's next to her last post was that she had seen RIP on Kelly's Facebook page. That's a sign that they are together and all is well. I was racking my brain about how I confused the name. Wow! Again, thank you for your keen eye. Hope you are doing well.
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Many of us said our good-byes on July 29th when she posted last. thanks for telling us that she's finally in a peaceful place
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I think we all did. She was ready, she endured so much pain and suffering. I pray she is at peace and dancing in the streets of gold.
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*soft paw* Oh noes. I had just sent a comment to Terry, she had been on my mind. So very sad. Thank you for letting us know. Another bright star in our skies tonight :*)
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I have been sending her a message a couple of times a week. Just to let her know I care.
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Praying for all that are suffering in our group to feel uplifted in thought.
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God bless you Ann.. You are in my prayers ... hugs and love Sabina
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Ann, thank you for informing us of Terry's passing. It makes me truly sad. May she and Kelly both rest in peace.
Thank you for letting us know. Hope you are doing well. Hugs, love, and prayers
So sad! Thanks for sharing - I will prayer for her heart broken family and friends. Hopefully she will get to spend some time with our sisters :)
Ann, thanks so much for the update. Somehow I missed Terry's last post So I'm in a bit of shock over her passing. I just read her last post.
She amazes me to no end...Such grace, compassion, humor, dignity, acceptance, and integrity. She won the battle of cancer by sustaining an honorable character throughout. And to all you BFACers that responded to Terry's post in July: Your words were drenched in compassion. Surely you warmed the cockles of Terry's heart
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Follow-up appointment

Just wanted to touch base and share some good news. 

I saw my oncologist today, and we both were thrilled that my hemoglobin is up to 11.5 and my platelets are 126,000. My body is slowly healing!

I will remain on the antibiotics for 2 weeks, and at that time we will contact Dr. Eng for her input on whether to proceed with current dosage, decrease it, or maybe do something else.

Home health has been a blessing. Earlier this week, I felt as if I had a UTI coming on, they took my specimen and all I had to do was send Rick to pick up my prescription.

I see Home health tomorrow. So far, all we have done is monitor my stats and rest. I’m not sure when PT will be in. I assume we will discuss that tomorrow.

I want to thank each of you for your thoughts and prayers. You all remain in mine.

God bless!

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5 people threw a punch at your cancer.
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So happy to hear some good news for once from you! Hopefully you've been through the worst!
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Thank you, my phone rang off the hook this afternoon from family wanting to know what the doctor had to say. They say it's always the darkest before the dawn - I see the light!
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I am so so happy to hear your latest news. Thank goodness that, at last,you are in the hands of a competent and caring organization. Continue resting, and eating what you can, so your body can heal.

Holding you in my heart and hoping that everything continues to improve.

lots of love,
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At last! I have come a long way from where I was on the 17th. I'll admit, I was about as low as I have ever been then, BFAC stood by me and held me up with love and prayers. The love, support and compassion shown within our family is unmeasurable. I am truly blessed by having such a wonderful group of people that I call family in my life.
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This is such a great update. And I so hope that the rest you're getting is not on the porcelain throne in that you're getting some couch or bed rest finally!
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Oh Linda, I'm not the same person I was last week. The love and support from my BFAC family got me through a really bad time. I'm forever grateful. No ma'am, I have retired from my golden porcelain throne. I went back to that 15 months that my time was always on the throne. I remembered that what and when I ate at least gave me a tiny bit of control. So I reverted back to the brat diet and have eaten nothing but soft food, unlike what I was given in the hospital. Baked ziti day one, was not the proper way to slow things down. Altho, I admit I ate the cheese and a couple of noodles without sauce, it was not good yet it was food and I felt I needed something. Today was a record setting throne visit day - 3 times, I can handle that. I am getting the much needed rest and felt it today, I parked at the far end of the parking lot, twice the normal walk. I had to stop a few times, just to rest and catch my breath and I made it. Leaving the walk was not as difficult. When I got home, my handicap parking placard was in the mail, lol. I honestly don't think I would have used it, since the procedure in December, I have had no exercise to speak of, so I felt I had to start somewhere. Home health will be here tomorrow and I assume we will be discussing PT, I'm ready to get stronger so we can go back and beat this demon once and for all. I have been through a lot and so far have made it through, with a lot of help from my friends! I can't imagine where I would be without y'all in my life - I am certain beyond a shadow of doubt, God led me here as he has been by myside since I was diagnosed. He has plans for me, and quitting is not one of them. I love you all. God bless you! Btw, I loved your emoji post, you have a knack for bringing a smile and joy into my heart.
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Ann, I love this! You are definitely getting stronger! You are much loved here and we are all cheering you on! Love and hugs to you my friend!
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I love hearing something positive going your way. It's about time, right? You are still in my thoughts and prayers. May all your news be good news from here on out.
Linda E
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Thank you, it has been a long time coming. I was ready for anything positive to come my way. It's too bad there was not a camera in the exam room to capture the relief and excitement between my dr. & I. I just wanted to jump up and down, the hug between us satisfied that feeling. We both had tears of joy in our eyes. As I stated in my post, I will continue resting, eating and drinking lots of water... and sneak in my favorite Dr. Pepper from time to time. I'm a totally different person that I was this time last week and like a new person compared to the 17th. Prayers are being answered. Thank you so much.
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I am so happy!! Happy dancing for your recovery. YOU are amazing, I always have thought so. You are so real, and fun, even in tough times. There is a certain up beat, to your down beats.
Hugs and hugs!
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You are to KIND...I have been called a lot of things, amazing is not one, lol. I love the way that sound "certain up beat to my down beats," I reached an all time low, I honestly feel the Carbo was too soon after the procedure, I'm to blame for that as I wanted to get treatment going and I said lets do it, as my numbers were great. I will never do that again. BFAC got me through this, the love, support and compassion is unmeasurable. I know God led me here and has his hand on me; he is not done with me and I'm grateful he has allowed my body to start healing itself. Physically, I'm still tired and that is understandable while on 2 antibiotics. I will continue what I am doing and follow the suggestions/directions from Home health, they have proved to be a valuable resource. In the past couple of weeks, I have learned that I have to put myself first and speak up if things are a little off. In this recent event, I had the Interventional Radiologists telling me what I was feeling was the flu like syndrome that comes with the procedure, I listened and thought they were right. At least we proved by CT that the procedure was done well and no problems, which must be why I had a 76,000 increase in platelets in a weeks time. I am feeling better and have a much better outlook than I had this time last week. I wanted to jump overboard, the love and caring here surrounded me with life preservers. That is truly amazing, we have such great people here. Even though we all have one thing in common AC, we have more, we all have huge hearts and care about our family and will do whatever we can to lend an ear and any advice we can. We are all special!
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Thank you, it's amazing what a difference a week made. Seeing the numbers, knowing that my body generated the increase and not meds through IV's was a wonderful feeling. I owe a lot of the great news to our BFAC family, the love, caring, support and prayers are what pulled me out of the dark place. I have never been a quitter, yet on the 26th when I was discharged, I was ready to throw in the towel. I came here and the love and prayers took that thought from me. I'm here for the long haul. God has plans, we are not done yet. Thank you so much for being here for me. God bless you.
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Ann, so happy to hear that you are feeling better and gettzing the care that you deserve 😘😘
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Thank you so much. It was a long road, yet with all the support from our BFAC family I made it through. I still have a ways to go, and I am on the right track. Home health was the best thing to happen, in retrospect, I think bringing me home instead of another inpatient facility aided in where I am today. There's no place like home, having my 4-legged kids, my chair and my own bed. It's true, there is no place like home!
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I'm really glad to hear your good news. I'm not sure how we all got on this journey but we have to keep the faith. You are very strong.
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I regret that there are so many of us on this journey, I'm glad it's rare or we would have many more and I never would wish AC on my worst enemy (not sure if I have any). My faith in God, my BFAC family are what got me to where I am today. The love, support, thoughts and prayers gets all the credit. It was very comforting today to see that my body was healing on its own and not with IV's filled with whatever. I feel much stronger today than I did this time last week. Although I'm still weak, I managed to get out and to the Drs office and I drive myself. It felt wonderful to get out, today was the first time since I was admitted on the 17th, other than the ride home that day. Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers. God bless you!
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This is great news, your hemoglobin is better than mine, btw! So glad you are doing better! Bless those home healthcare people :-)
Thinking of you and praying for you daily, thanks for the update, made my day!
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Thank you for your love, thoughts and prayers. It was really comforting to have a close to normal numbers for a change. Knowing my body is healing on its own was incredble news to get, it's been a long time coming. So far I can't say anything bad about home Heath, they have been wonderful. Once we are done with home health and PT, I am going to stay with them and go into their palliative care, it's much easier for them to get orders for pain meds and anything I should need. Back in November, I was given that option, yet refused it. With all that has transpired since then, I feel it's a great idea. Having someone come in and observing can recognize things we see day to day. Plus, this is for Rick, if they say I need to go to the ER, then I will go. I did find out the hospital I was at, has the same United Heath care as I do, except that mine is a better policy and where they said inpatient was out of network, mine said it is in network, which is why they were so reluctant about sending me there. After all it is the best rehab around, and the hospital employees are not in network and they are upset, so they don't promote referrals, the Hospitalist do. I let the person who called me from the hospital that I was aware of that, and that is their company issues,,not the patients. She offered to let me talk to the nurse manager on that floor, but I declined, said save it for later, she even asked if I wanted to talk to the CEO! Whom I did the same save it for later. It's all BS, the Heath care is this country is terrible and I think it will get worse before it gets better. I got a call from the hospital PT department, the pelvic function Dept. to schedule an appt for bladder/fecal incontinence evaluation. DUH! I was there for 9 days and no one from that Dept contacted me, they wait until a week after discharge. I did not take the call, I think I will, just to see if they can help on future episodes or maybe give me insight to when it's about to occur and what I can do. It's worth looking into, I just hope PT_itch is not there. Thank you so much for your love, support and prayers. God bless you.
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Praying for healing and your continued well being.
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Thank you so much. Prayers have been answered and I'm on the right road to recovery. I was hit hard and it took a toll on me, that's not stopping me. I'm no quitter and will do whatever my body will allow for me to finish this quest and help others in the future. Again, thank you. GOd bless
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My prayers for you continue because it sounds like they are being answered! I am soooo happy and I know you will continue to improve.
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Amen! Prayers are being answered. God has had me by the hand since I began this quest, he still has plans for me that I intend to fulfil. My family and I all had accepted that as sick as I was, this was the beginning of the end, it sure felt that way. The day I was discharged, I started to believe we may be right. Then with some rest, I thought about the fact I'm not the only person with cancer that have had to be admitted to the hospital, and that I'm no different. Perhaps the terrible 72hrs when I evacuated the black/bloody stools was a good thing, to get that out of me, I hope to never relive that ever again. That's behind me and that's where it will stay. I am focusing on the positive and the future. I have faith and I BELIEVE! Thank you so much for your thoughts and continued prayers. God bless
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So happy to hear some good news from you - you have been through too much! Your attitude is always amazing - I'm looking forward to more positive updates🙏🏼😍
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Thank you! I was due for some good news, it's been a rough couple of months, yet I'm still here. Getting stronger each day. My attitude is better, can't say that it was from the 17th until today. I was in so much pain, that I was not optimistic at all. I'm so glad I stated upfront I did not want any visitors whatsoever. Of course I could not keep Rick away, however, I did convince him a couple of days to take care of things at home and we could talk on the phone - bless his heart, he agreed. Spending the majority of your day/night on the toilet does not put you in the visiting/entertaining mode at all. Today, as bad as it was, I am grateful I made it through the dark place, now seeing light. My focus now is to get stronger and continue the treatment, if that's what my Drs come up with. I will rest, eat my brat modified diet and let my body heal. Thank you so much for your support. More good news WILL follow! God bless
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I'm so happy that things are going better for you. You have had such a hard time and could really use a break.
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Thank you Becky, it has been a long road, however I can see light at the end of the tunnel. I have a ways left to go. My body is healing itself and that is a miracle. I do believe God has plans for me and I intend to fulfill my end. Thank you so much for your support. God bless
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Oh, Ann, I am so happy to hear this. Here's to continuing healing!
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Thank you very much. I was like a kid with a new toy when I heard my body was healing itself. I'm going to continue with home health and let them help and show me how to get stronger, so I can finish the rest of the treatment, that's is if Dr. Eng and my dr agree on a treatment plan that won't knock me down. It's all in Gods hands. THank you so much for your support. God bless you!
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Ann, I am so glad things have improved for you. I hope those antibiotics will knock out the UTI quickly. I continue to keep you and Rick too in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us posted when you can. Hugs!
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I praise the Lord for this report Ann. Still praying for you.
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So happy to see that you have made a turn for the better, I knew you still had fight in you. Give it hell Ann, stay strong and fight on.
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You sound wonderful!! Hang tough!!
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Fantastic, Ann!
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Halleluja and Glory Be! *high paws* We've been so worried about you. Sending you healing vibes and hugs - may your journey through recovery be speedy with no more blips. Hugs :*)
Absolutely wonderful news Ann! I am so very pleased that you are on the up, about time too
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Vital Info


October 17, 2015

North Augusta, South Carolina 2

February 9, 1960

Cancer Fighter

Cancer Info

Anal Cancer

July 31, 2015

Stage 1

1.1 - 2.0 cm


Any amount is appreciated

The isolation and embarrassment from the stigma of Anal Cancer

That I am the only one in control of my body.


11/3/16 mets lung and liver

Searching for one


12/8 going to Dr. Eng MD Anderson for options

Eat lots of protein, or drink protein shakes.

Rest, when your body says sleep do it. Sleep is when the body heals.

November 23, 2015

December 28, 2015

Blood in stools, lower right abdominal pain. Frequent bouts of diarrhea.

Tumor excision 7/31/15

Radiation 9/23/15 uncontrollable diarrhea, severe burns, hair loss, pain in hips, now stiff



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